Today…

Today was a good day. I never would have thought that I would be living this way. Measuring time measuring days… My worst fear comes true every single damn day. There is no escape, no waking up from this terrible horrible nightmare. I don’t measure my time by weeks and …

How do I ?

How do I start ? Where do I start from? How do you put into words your worst nightmare come true ?…. I have been so scared to confront or even admit any of those feelings . I am so afraid of un-numbing myself to actually feel all these emotions …

Same S%&% different day..

I am seriously going stir crazy with this Quarantine stuff. I see on the news all these people going out without face coverings and no social distancing. I barely go out for essentials and I see Walmart crowded, people not wearing their masks. How is this pandemic going to go …

Please be patient

It is a little devastating having to start over. I feel so in limbo and I am just trying to stay calm and be the support system my kids need… I have to keep telling myself to be patient with the kids and most of all myself…